Loving, Hoping, Wishing

all over again...

2010-08-01T08:14:00.000-07:00

in short, i miss you, but i still dont want you.

i just cant accept the fact 2 years ago...and im still trying...

ASG was so fun but you didnt go...if you went it would have been a whole different story.

i wouldnt be able to say that i like tt and i would just have acted differently. i hope you'll be there next year, but now i look to you just as a friend. i'm sorry to say, but not even a good friend. you broke my heart in two and no amount of glue could fix it...

i just wish you'd stop fooling around...

p.s.

tc...

2009-06-22T02:40:00.000-07:00

take care:)
i'm going to make this short and sweet:)
'm going to remember that for a very long time. nothing's going to make me forget:)

XOXO

p.s. a night to remember

Randomness...

2009-06-08T22:07:00.000-07:00

gah...i don't know if I should consider today a good or bad day. i guess it might be both, but it could have been better, only that i was sway...i don't feel like writing about it here...let's go shuttlelove:)

for all you sad people out there who cant read my locked blog, fret not! (sounds like anmol. nerd-ish) you can go read nat ho's blog----- natho.net/nblog/ it's seriously quite cool:) i read it:) but i still know my blog is cooler:)

happy reading:)
XOXO

p.s. ~the second destruction~

Puzzle of my Heart...

2009-06-03T22:23:00.000-07:00

That's a nice song:) ^^ anyways, i'm bored. haha. there's so much homework but i dont know what to do first. sigh... life is a mess. JOKER! haha. i;m talking about someone now. ya, i think i know how you feel, it's kind of obvious...but still...it's getting too obvious. even... forget it. you ppl dont need to know:) and now bev is going to say that i'm keeping secrets from her, WHICH IS TRUE! ...but i just cant get myself to tell you. and you dont need to know. haiz...
XOXO

p.s. i want to play mixed doubles with ***a****. haiz...

This dare is going nowhere...

2009-06-01T23:30:00.000-07:00

I KNOW!!! THAT RHYMES:):):) ok...anyways, when we were playing truth or dare at sarah's house, i dared berenice to admit to everyone that 'ho' in her surname came from marcus. actually, it's quite obvious it's not... and so, she dared me to write ' i want to play mixed doubles with ***a****' as my MSN name...but she forgot to say that i couldn't say that it was a dare...so HAHA:) ...and sarah's dare was to write ' i think you are hot, ***a*'. nd the bad thing about her was that the person actually asked her what was with her name...so another HAHA:) anyways, if you didnt know, i have another blog, a locked one. so far, only berenice and janessa can see it, so if you want me to allow you to see the blog, just say so in the tagboard. terms and conditions apply* ok:) so that's all folks:) i have to type out my super long eglish content page now:(

XOXO

p.s. Love is patient, Love is kind; Love never fails, it never does <3

Loss for words...

2009-06-01T04:18:00.000-07:00

ok so training today went kind of ok...except for stuff that i won't say...i'll pobably write it in my locked blog:) anyways, i spent like 4 hours in sarah's house today and we did work AND we played truth or dare...so that was whaen i got to write that 'i want to play mixed doubles with ***a****' on MSN...berenice's idea:( but it doesn't really matter anyways:) i'm like so sleepy and tomorrow is SMO so good night:)
XOXO

p.s. it's a love story, baby just say 'yes'

Please don't flash this to anyone...

2009-05-29T07:14:00.000-07:00

lol...i'm haven't postedd in a long while. But when i compare myself to other ppl, they haven't posted in like 1 month?! so relax, i'm cool:) down to business:) bev is in love with fung-guy, like seriously, like bf gf:) lol:) btw, 1T has a new set of BFFs! << that can mean what u want it to...---bambi and the pie. well, so amny things have happened and ROCs was like just here, and now it's gone:( and i have love story stuck in my head bcoz i kept listening to it on sarah's ipod during ROCs -.- anyways, i think berenice's mac is cool:) especially the taking photos one:) yeah:) roght now, i guess i'm not so emo (yay!) bcoz things change and ppl do to. forget it, let's talk about fun stuff:) I'M LI WEN'S ANGEL! and she being blurer then anmol thought it was yu han all along:) HAHA!
I discovered like the latest discovery:) i went up to blysee and asked about her blog. it's blysse-galore.blospot.com please go see. in one of her entries, somewhere in april, she says that she is the gifted of the gifted students, and that she is unable to communicate with the rest of the class as she is on a higher level of intelligence. and she says that she has to communicate with us on our level. i maen seriously! who do u think u are! u may be smart but dont go biasting it around. i mean u got 242 for PSLE and i'm SO sure that everyone got lower than u that's why you're so amrt... if you become a charlie gordon and say that that is not the accurate measure of intelligence, that what in the world do u want to measure?? social intelligence?? don't kid me...
wow... this is long. and i ended up talking about my BEST FRIEND... anyways, happy holidays. want me to quote u something? here--- "SCHOOLS OUT" (in bad handwriting) >> and we could NEVER EVER EVER guess who wrote that -.-
XOXO
p.s. what hurt the most, was being so close...

I can only imagine...

2009-05-24T01:13:00.000-07:00

I can only imagine...my heart is like a heavy rock, sinking in the sea...and it sinks and sinks and sinks...i can't help but think of you ...you disappoint me, yes. but still...you are my other half heart...but i know some things are impossibe...things like this...they just can't be helped...all i can say is sorry...sorry for i dont know what, but just sorry...
XOXO

p.s. you must be tired, you've been running through my mind...

Crushed...

2009-05-23T03:22:00.000-07:00

Crushed crushed crushed crushed crushed
this this this this this
is is is is is
so so so so so
cute cute cute cute cute
! ! ! ! !
so you're going to tell that this is lame:)...i agree:)...reason being i dunno what to write:(
actually, i do know what to write, but i dont know if i should write it:(...ok fine...this is not getting anywhere...
i'll just end this here...sorry for the suspense:(
you might know what i want to write if you look at the title...
that's a big clue...happy playing investigators:):)
XOXO
p.s. I know jolene and bern are very good at playing investigators...right bev? :)

All mixd up...

2009-05-22T23:34:00.000-07:00

YAY...boo hoo...i feel kinda happy yet sad:(
reasons to be happy:
1) school is sort of over...all left with ROCs:)
2) selling of floats made a lot of money:)
3) lao shi was quite nice and put the ice cream in the fridge and gave us a free period:)
4) i went for sports school training and saw someone:):):)

sad:( :
1) actually not much:)
2) i'm just emo-ing again:)
3) this is lame
4) yes i finally remebered!
5) a lot of homework:(
6) that's all folks
7) i told you there was a lot-.-
8) it made up 8 points:)

ok...this is a lame post-.- i'll post a proper one when i have the time a.k.a. never:)
XOXO
grass:)

p.s. please dont ask any questions on what i wrote...i know what you're thinking:)

Bad day...

2009-05-19T01:58:00.000-07:00

ok...i'm going to write all the bad stuff that happened today:( ...depressing:(
1) Mrs Pandian scolded everyone, ok maybe except su yen, and especially my group, that we didnt do anything for cip...
2) History CT was BAD BAD BAD!!!
3) Ms ** said that me throwing the ball was not explosive and she said,"Is that how u smash? It's more like a drop shot!" diao...i'll listen to you when u beat me in badminton:)
4) Maths olympiad was so boring:(

ok i gtg now...stupid 'sky cold then come back' thingy:(

p.s. LAO SHI HAS FACEBOOK AND MSN...AND HE THINKS WHATEVER IS A RUDE WORD!!!

Don't look back at the Sun...

2009-05-17T02:38:00.000-07:00

I know I shouldn't look back at the sun--look back at my life history, but you made me. You made me look back. Looking back, I can feel the pain and the hurt. I don't wasnt to be hurt again; I don't want...Why can't life just be simple? Why can't we just be friends? If ony we could wind back the clock and start anew...if only...I know it's impossible, but I hope you understand. I hope that one day, there won't be this friction. One day we could just say hi without feeling bad. Just one day...The regrets that we have, let's just erase it...please? Let's just be friends...please?
XOXO

p.s. If you don't get any of this, then don't try...you don't want to get hurt:)

EPIC FAIL!!!

2009-05-16T06:22:00.000-07:00

Diaozzz….i’ve been emo-ing for like a long time-.-

Things that I’ve been emo-ing about:

1) My Chinese is bad bad bad…actually worse than bad…fail fail fail…

2) Some idiot took my physics text book in march and just re turned it + a sticker (masking tape)--- she or maybe a he wrote using markers (Marcus JJJJJJJJJJJJ) ‘Hui Zhen 1T ‘…that’s what I mean when I say my Chinese name + my class rox…(what’s the plural og rox?...roxes?)

3) My group’s poetry thing only got 22 marks…

4) My iso survey is like far from done -.-

5) My note box with janessa is falling apart

6) We have to do a project on the NATURE RESERVE---WOW SO INTERESTING!!!

7) We are having cip from wed to fri and yet barely anything is done!!!---EPIC FAIL!!! EPIC FAIL!!!

8) I’m supposed to send an email to my iso teacher but I forgot her name…and I don’t know her enail address-.- I seriously don’t know her name …natassha also doesn’t -.-

9) I have to write a Chinese compo on ‘sky cold then come back’…that’s direct translation…

10) I just wrote 10 things to emo about…so depressing-.-

Something good this week--- I LOVE MATHSJ …I think u get it by nowJ I’m looking forward to the thingy on Monday…ya the excursion…and I hope the tea party thing on Tuesday won’t be epic fail like everything else this week…I pray notJ

Wow this is longJ bye thenJ emo-erJJ I know it doesn’t matchJ it should be L but oh well…o.OJ

Happiness- hopefully it will last...

2009-05-13T06:48:00.000-07:00

i'm so...HAPPY haPPY haPPY:)
OK...FIRST THINGS FIRST...
1) Igot first in class for maths:)
2) i didnt fail bio even though i anyhow did it:)
3) i hope bern finds the thingy that says a teacher cannot give projects during common test period...then maybe we can go sue the teacher...
4) this blog is up and working...or sort of...
5) common tests are over
6) i'm happy:):):)
p.s. tmr some ppl (teachers or smth) are gonna come to our class for chinese...let's see how's it gonna go...i think it would be epic fail...no offence lao shi...and no offence to your 'pose' either...

ONE PAPER LEFT

2009-05-12T01:30:00.000-07:00

YAY!!! there's one paper left...chinese...i'm gonna be a happy girl tmr 1.40pm:) i'm doing my lame eng stuff...which teacher gives hw after exams???...so stupid...ps. some ppl are going to come for our chinese class on thurs...and we have to act "normal" aka i dunno what...i'm so bored and i'm emo-ing...isn't that fun:)

p.s. ppl with facebook pla comment on my A - Z note...
p.p.s DAI YANG TIAN ROX!!!
p.p.p.s this is lame...

In the beginning...

2009-05-10T05:54:00.000-07:00

ok so this is my first entry in like 3 years? i actually had some posts, but i deleted them coz i didnt like them:) so i have nothing much to write here...it's the common test priod now, but actually 5/8 of it is over:) i hope i do well:) i'm still deciding if i should lock this bolck...should i?...nvm...i'll see first...anyway...HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY...but i dont think any mothers are actually reading this so forget it...bye:) T.T -- the **** face:)